The Breakthrough

Daniel and I have talked so much the last few months that our relationship was starting to feel a lot like a merry-go-round. We'd say the same things, have the same arguments and end with the same result. But the last time we sat either end of the phone and danced around the familiar subject of Dominance and submission - something changed. Now, I'm not sure if Daniel really got it, I'm not sure if I even twisted the hand or whether we both just exhausted the situation we'd spent the last couple of months in and got tired. I was definitely getting tired.

Q&A: "How do I get him to punish me?"

Q. My Master and I have been together for 5 months. We are both very new in the lifestyle and it is the first time for the both of us being in a  D/s relationship with someone. Everything is really good and I love being His sub. We have certain rules in place that I have to follow and He told me at the beginning that discipline will be important to Him but He rarely punishes me.
I know I would enjoy it so much if He did and have even broken rules on purpose just to try and get Him to hurt me. I know He is a sadist but all He does is tell me off and ignore me for a while instead of physically punishing me which I hate. I was expecting punishment to be spankings and beatings not this. How do I get Him to hurt me when I'm wrong?

A submissive desire.

I want to fall to my knees at my lovers feet; feel the rough material of his jean rub against my cheek as I rest my head on the side of his leg and whisper...."Take me."
I want him to do more than just hear my words. I want him to read my mind and fall into the deep depths of my soul; when he looks down at me and my eyes meet with his, I want him to see my devotion for him scripted across my pupils and by God...do I want him to draw every last bit of it from me.

I want to offer myself to him; give him my wrists to tie tightly enough that I can feel my pulse beat against my skin and let the restraint allow ecstasy to run through my arteries quicker than oxygen ever could. I want to feel the soft satin stroke against my wrists, so softly - in the same manner his fingers caress my skin sometimes when we make love.

Review(BB):: Silver Collection Mouth Bit

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A hypothetical letter, from the bottom of my heart.

After an amazing four days with my partner, almost a week of good sex - with even a spoonful of Dominance thrown in, then a day of talking over our differences and incompatibility again - I'm thrown back into the scary place of contemplation I was starting to hope I'd be leaving soon.
I've been thinking. So many emotions and thoughts; so much whirling around inside my mind - too much for me to make peace with. I am torn into two halves. We've tried talking, god knows we've tried but it is pointless, effortless. He doesn't get it-  I get frustrated. We get angry, hurt and upset. And yet there's so much I need to get out of my system still. So I've taken to my Blog, my small place of serenity - Just to be somewhere I can actually be. Today, I'm writing a hypothetical letter - one to my partner, that I will  never give to him. One that he would never understand even if I did but the only way I know how to, and can let go of everything I feel...

Q&A: Caging and Confinement

Q. Are you into Caging and Confinement?
If so, why? what about being confined appeals to you?
Is confinement a regular part of your play and what kinds of cages are you most happy to be locked inside of?


A. That's a handful of questions, so I'll answer them in order.
I am definitely 'into' caging and confinement. I'm into restraint in general and think cages and confinement equipment are a great addition and extra mile when it comes to restraint. I suppose, for me- a cage is probably the 'ultimate' restraint.

Review(BB): Ultimate Under Bed Restraint

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Q&A: "Worried about my daughter"

Q. My 21 year old daughter has been in a relationship with someone for nearly 4 years. I have always liked him and we really get on. They live together and my daughter seems very happy with him. I have always thought they made a good couple. My daughter recently told me that she and her partner's relationship is different because they are Dominant and submissive. She was very open about it and told me about some of the things they do together and what makes their relationship different. I appreciate that she could tell me but all I can think now is that my daughter is in an abusive relationship with a man who controls her and makes decisions for her (even sometimes chooses her meals!). She's is submissive to him in many ways and yet seems happy to be doing this. She was brought up by my husband and me who have a 50/50 equal relationship so I don't understand why she would choose this. Should I be encouraging her to leave him?

How this is going to work...

So, this blog is still so new.
Of course, I'm not a new blogger but this platform is still a baby project and I am a long way off achieving anything close to what my previous 'cyber spaces' have done. Any blog is a work-in-progress though - forever changing, strengthening in both content and readers and I hope you are as keen to follow me on this new venture as I am to lead it...