Stood facing the blank white walls of our lounge, I wanted to cry. All the emotions I knew I'd feel were there but much more profoun...
I do not want to be the leader.
"I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”
I fell in love with you on our very first date, when my eyes defied me when I tried to look away from you for just a second at the train station. I told myself it was because you were gorgeous - I just wanted to gaze at you, take all of you in for a moment. But as I looked into the deep pools of your eyes, I could have sworn I'd found your soul and it mated with mine; I believed I had searched for you a lifetime before that meet.
Infact, I'm not being unselfish at all. You see, when I submit, I do it just as much for myself as I do it for you. Of course, I hope you exult in my submission, treasure it and protect it. I hope you find the very depth of your happiness when your eyes take in the vision of me on my knees, bared naked before you. I pray that it makes you fulfilled, satisfies you and I hope you find pride in me giving myself over to you.
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"The more connections you and your lover make, not just between your bodies, but between your minds, your hearts and your souls, the more you will strengthen the fabric of your relationship and the more real moments you will experience together."
I fell in love with you on our very first date, when my eyes defied me when I tried to look away from you for just a second at the train station.
